Courage, dear heart.

IMG_1665 There are so many things I want to write about, so many photographs I want to show, but the seemingly-hundreds of barriers often get in the way. The feeling of overwhelm creeps in easily and I become still – and sometimes even silent because there’s just too much.

Overwhelm is not new to anyone who runs a business, and actually, I’m sure it’s nothing new to anyone who is human. It’s something we all feel from time-to-time, and some circumstances and lifestyles may create more of an opportunity for this looming and powerful feeling to take over. I read The War of Art about a year ago and so many of the ideas have stuck with me.  Pressfield writes a lot about resistance when creating something meaningful. He writes about how overwhelm is a form of that and it can totally stop us in our tracks unless we proactively do something about it.  “Resistance obstructs movement only from a lower sphere to a higher. It kicks in when we seek to pursue a calling in the arts, launch an innovative enterprise, or evolve to a high station morally, ethically, or spiritually.” ― Steven PressfieldThe War of Art: Break Through the Blocks & Win Your Inner Creative Battles

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I’m in a great and challenging place in my business right now. It’s growing a lot and I’m busier than ever. I’m so grateful but at the same time, I feel frazzled, overwhelmed, and tired. To be honest, I’ve lived a lot of my life this way… and I’m still trying to figure out the reasons why, and the answers to how I can make my days a little more peaceful and a lot less crazy. The thing about starting and growing a business, is that there is always more work to be done. There’s always more dreaming, more ideas, more tasks to write on the to-do list(s). And for someone like me who likes to dream a lot and be involved with multiple exciting things at once, running a business can become more like running a circus – and that’s how it feels right now.  I have a few mentors and  friends who have given a lot of wisdom around this – much of it involves cutting back, raising my prices (again), and saying no. For some reason this is so so hard for me. And I think there is so element of fear in that resistance to saying no and moving in a new direction. Pressfield speaks to this to.

“Fear is good. Like self-doubt, fear is an indicator. Fear tells us what we have to do. Remember our rule of thumb: The more scared we are of a work or calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it. Resistance is experienced as fear; the degree of fear equates to the strength of Resistance. Therefore the more fear we feel about a specific enterprise, the more certain we can be that that enterprise is important to us and to the growth of our soul. That’s why we feel so much Resistance. If it meant nothing to us, there’d be no Resistance.” ― Steven Pressfield,

I’ve heard this thing about fear before, from other places, too. And it’s not the kind of fear that we really should listen to (there’s a place for that in our lives!) but it’s the kind of fear that can be overcome by LOVE and COURAGE. There are a few big changes that I feel I’m on the cusp of, and although fear has been holding me back.. I’m convinced that this form of resistance is really my indicator that those seedlings in my heart are about ready to flourish, and all I need to do is cling to Love and step into it with courage.

IMG_8979What is the seedling in your heart that is ready to burst but you’re holding it in, trying to contain it out of fear or resistance? How will you let that beauty into the world?

“The best and only thing that one artist can do for another is to serve as an example and an inspiration.”

We’re all waiting.

courage

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Live Light

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Hello, friends.

 

I am going to be updating, renovating, and revealing some new things on my blog soon!
I’m all-in as summer begins (a little late here in Colorado)! And I have some exciting things I want to share here in the next few weeks.

I’ll be making it a practice to write at least once a week…my goal is to be consistant, authentic, and hopefully inspiring.
Thanks to all who still check out my blog and read…I know I’ve been slow and quiet. Thanks for hanging in with me :)

For today, may this gorgeous mountain view and words inspire you to LIVE LIGHT today.

 

Love, Abby

10% off your JOY PORTRAIT session!

Book your JOY PORTRAIT session before March 1st and receive 10% off!

“I felt loved.
I felt seen.
I felt beautiful again.
I felt free to be me and to see the beauty in that being.
I felt whole.”

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The solo joy portraits will $145 (take an additional 10% off if you book within the next 10 days!) with an option to have a custom-made flower crown for an additonal $25.  If you have a few friends that you’d like to gather, I can do solo JOY PORTRAITS for $99 each (with a minimum of 3 people).

E-mail Abby today for details at loverootsphotography@gmail.com

You are loved.

Guess what?

Even if you don’t have a special “Valentine” today…YOU ARE LOVED. loved

Although my husband and I don’t usually make a big deal of Valentine’s Day, I can see why it exists, and why it really is important for people. I think that it really shows us the longing that each human being has in this world. The deep longing to be loved. To be understood, loved, and connected, is one of our most important needs in this life. And sadly, many people go through their days not believing or even knowing that they are loved. I know not everyone may have the same beliefs about this that I do…but I wholeheartedly believe that there is a Divine and Loving Creator who made us to crave and desire love and connection, and not only that, He wants to be the one to meet that desire. He tells us that “I have loved you with an everlasting love”. He reminds us throughout history and words that His love never fails.  I’ve recently come across a beautiful instagram feed that has given me a refreshed perspective of God’s deep and profound love for his people.  One day when I was really struggling and feeling un-loved, broken, and needing a big reminder, I spend some time reading through posts from thejealouslove on instagram. Here are some words I read and re-wrote to remind myself of the truth about love, God’s love, for me.

“You are mine and mine alone. You are the love I have crowned. I keep a close watch on your heart because it belongs to me. I know the plans and riches I have for you. Ever since I set my gaze on your heart, I chose it forever and I will never be turned away from it…”

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“I know the thoughts that haunt your mind and the cares you carry in your heart. I desire to carry them for you so that I may place the crown of beauty on your head. That I may take your hand and guide you through a passage of endless discovery. The very things you’re wanting are the very things I passionately and desperately desire to give to you…Allow me to have your heart so that you may be F R E E …..”

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“He releases the rhythms of love through the atmosphere of their shared space. It is narrow and only a heart that is childlike can find it. Speculation and doubt can not even see the door, but awe and wonder will pave the path to it’s gates…for this place is not bound by earth’s wisdom, but freed through heaven’s wisdom. It is abundant beauty that never stops unfolding her identity through the King…”

And for those of you who are married and are feeling a little tiny (or not-so-tiny) piece missing because you wish you had the romantic feelings and excitement you may have once had in the beginning, these words from Ann Voskamp are a beautiful reminder of why love and true romance are more than what we see on tv and throughout all types of media. It’s deeper and more beautiful, and although not always easy, it always connects us deeper to True Love Himself.

For any couples out there that would love some time to reflect and laugh together, sharing in a new way while having intimate and meaningful portraits taken, Beloved Sessions are something I absolutely love to do…and I know it will bless you. Contact me through my website if you’d like more information. (loverootsphotography.com)

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Wherever your heart is today, may you know that you are deeply loved. always loved.

 

 

offerings / joy portraits

untitled (572 of 1012)Who doesn’t love to see JOY on the face of their friend, their loved one, or even someone they’ve never even met before!? Joy is one of those authentic expressions that we all love seeing and long to feel.  A few months back I started a hashtag on instagram called #joyportraits. At the time, I didn’t know it would turn into an important part of my business, but now I see how I can bring even more meaning and depth to a portrait session.

The other day it was snowing like crazy, and it was really cold.  I loved the idea of the contrast of winter and spring, of bright colors against the pure white backdrop. And I love moments like these ; one on one, where I get to connect with someone and reveal through the lens a glimpse of their beautiful and unique spirit.

joyportraitsbrandiBrandi and I had a sweet time of running around in the snow and taking photographs. After her experience, she asked if she could write a guest blog post about our time together and of course I said yes! I’d love for people to hear from the perspective of someone on the other side of my camera. Here’s what she wrote:

“I have spent hours scrolling though Abby’s beautiful pictures thinking “oh I would love to do that one day” only to quietly shame myself and soften the urge by following that thought up with, “no one would want to see them anyways.” I figured since I didn’t have a significant other, there was no reason to take beautiful photos. 
 Boy, was I wrong.
 As a long-time friend, I’m pretty sure something inside Abby prompted her to call me on my birthday weekend and ask if I had time for a short photo-shoot with her. She wanted to take pictures in the middle of a snowstorm with crowns of flowers. Each time we hike a mountain together, we pick flowers, put them in our hair and sing the Mumford and Sons song with the lyric, 
“And there will come a time, you’ll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.”
 
Honestly, I had been struggling that week. I had struggled with my self-image, my self-worth, my own brokenness and longing for more beauty in this world. I struggled with approaching my 33rd birthday alone again. Little did I know that an impromptu photo-shoot with my lovely, grace-filled friend would be such a healing experience. 
 
We went out to Red Rocks in the middle of a snow storm with a beautiful crown of flowers and a few jackets between us. I had no clue what was in store and Abby deftly guided me to exactly the right spots and put me at ease. Quietly, with almost a holy hush, Abby raised the crown of flowers and set it gently on my head while whispering “He bestowed on her a crown of beauty instead of ashes” and my heart leapt with healing. I didn’t feel the need to pose or be fake, but felt at ease to just be me. To be silly in some moments with a crown slipping from my head and to close my eyes when she suggested and simply breathe in the beauty of the cold air around me. I don’t know how she did it or what she said….I only know how I felt
 
I felt loved.
I felt seen.
I felt beautiful again.
I felt free to be me and to see the beauty in that being.
I felt whole.
 
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Little did I know that maybe not having a significant other made it even that much more important for me to take time out of my life to do portraits with Abby. Something happened in that snowy field and in the pictures I’ve seen from those moments, my God met me there. He met me through Abby’s kind spirit, quiet words and gentle, kindred giggle and through her camera lens. He helped me to see maybe a little bit of what He sees in me. He helped me to try on the idea that He considers me beautiful and maybe it’s high time for me to accept His words and truth about who I am. Healing happened in those moments and through those pictures and I will be forever grateful. I’m pretty sure I will need to schedule pictures with Abby as a part of my “soul care” every few months, just to remind myself of the truths that are so dear”.

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After I read this  from Brandi, I felt sooooo grateful. I felt so happy that something I desire so much (that my work would be a true gift to others, that people would know their authentic beauty- the kind that on one else in the world has, and that people would be moved by the images because they made them feel something) was actually coming true.

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I’m thankful to Brandi for writing these encouraging words, and I’m thankful to all who have had the courage to get in front of the camera like this, because it’s not easy.

As I’ve been dreaming about a way to offer more sessions like this, Brandi spurred me on to put it out there!

So I’m offering JOY PORTRAITS.

The solo joy portraits will be $145 with an option to have a custom-made flower crown (I made the one on Brandi).  If you have a few friends that you’d like to gather, I can do solo JOY PORTRAITS for $99 each (with a minimum of 3 people).

Brandi and I are also planning something special together; a unique ‘soul care’ collection for women to come together, understand more deeply their beauty and worth, and will include joy portraits among other special offerings.

I can tell you more details when you get in touch to set one up! Please E-MAIL me or CALL  TODAY if you’d like to know more at loverootsphotography@gmail.com or go to my website to see some more of my work and fill out the contact form there.

Thank you for reading and I CAN NOT WAIT to capture your joy and authentic beauty!

(p.s. I’m running a contest for those who share and comment that they shared about Joy Portraits. You can win a FREE session… to learn more check out my post on my facebook page)