There are so many things I want to write about, so many photographs I want to show, but the seemingly-hundreds of barriers often get in the way. The feeling of overwhelm creeps in easily and I become still – and sometimes even silent because there’s just too much.
Overwhelm is not new to anyone who runs a business, and actually, I’m sure it’s nothing new to anyone who is human. It’s something we all feel from time-to-time, and some circumstances and lifestyles may create more of an opportunity for this looming and powerful feeling to take over. I read The War of Art about a year ago and so many of the ideas have stuck with me. Pressfield writes a lot about resistance when creating something meaningful. He writes about how overwhelm is a form of that and it can totally stop us in our tracks unless we proactively do something about it. “Resistance obstructs movement only from a lower sphere to a higher. It kicks in when we seek to pursue a calling in the arts, launch an innovative enterprise, or evolve to a high station morally, ethically, or spiritually.” ― Steven Pressfield, The War of Art: Break Through the Blocks & Win Your Inner Creative Battles
I’m in a great and challenging place in my business right now. It’s growing a lot and I’m busier than ever. I’m so grateful but at the same time, I feel frazzled, overwhelmed, and tired. To be honest, I’ve lived a lot of my life this way… and I’m still trying to figure out the reasons why, and the answers to how I can make my days a little more peaceful and a lot less crazy. The thing about starting and growing a business, is that there is always more work to be done. There’s always more dreaming, more ideas, more tasks to write on the to-do list(s). And for someone like me who likes to dream a lot and be involved with multiple exciting things at once, running a business can become more like running a circus – and that’s how it feels right now. I have a few mentors and friends who have given a lot of wisdom around this – much of it involves cutting back, raising my prices (again), and saying no. For some reason this is so so hard for me. And I think there is so element of fear in that resistance to saying no and moving in a new direction. Pressfield speaks to this to.
“Fear is good. Like self-doubt, fear is an indicator. Fear tells us what we have to do. Remember our rule of thumb: The more scared we are of a work or calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it. Resistance is experienced as fear; the degree of fear equates to the strength of Resistance. Therefore the more fear we feel about a specific enterprise, the more certain we can be that that enterprise is important to us and to the growth of our soul. That’s why we feel so much Resistance. If it meant nothing to us, there’d be no Resistance.” ― Steven Pressfield,
I’ve heard this thing about fear before, from other places, too. And it’s not the kind of fear that we really should listen to (there’s a place for that in our lives!) but it’s the kind of fear that can be overcome by LOVE and COURAGE. There are a few big changes that I feel I’m on the cusp of, and although fear has been holding me back.. I’m convinced that this form of resistance is really my indicator that those seedlings in my heart are about ready to flourish, and all I need to do is cling to Love and step into it with courage.
“The best and only thing that one artist can do for another is to serve as an example and an inspiration.”
We’re all waiting.